I'm going to keep that short and sweet. I fell in love with my best friend and then ended up somehow telling her and everything sort of went down hill from then on. We'd barely spoke because things were so weird so eventually I just turned round to her one day and told her I didn't love her anymore and suddenly everything went back to normal, she'd smiled like she used to, she'd laugh like she used to, she'd joke like she'd used to and me? Well I'm not happy because all I've ever wanted I can't have but I don't mind because I look at her and realise because of what I did the one I always wanted will live to be all that somebody else wants. But lately, I don't know, I can't seemed to stop thinking about her, I did think about her before hand but I some how found something to occupy myself and the hurt wasn't so prominant but now I just can't get her out of mind. I'm so scared because I don't want to end up obsessive and lose her forever, I couldn't stand that. But I keep fueling the fire by telling myself that everytime I turn round and see her looking at me is because she feels exactly how I feel, and everytime we talk she face lights up and when I walk into a room we just seem to find eachother. It's complete nonsense I know but it's all I seem to be able to function on. When I told her i loved her I never got an answer from her she just went off and started being weird toward me which wasn't really helped by myself who was being just as weird with her because I figured it was best if we just keep our distance for some time even though that time just cut right through me. She eventually told her friends and in turn one of them confessed to me that she never mentioned how she felt only how I felt but another one of her friends just told me to give up an stop acting how I was toward because she would never feel anything for me, so that's when I told her i didn't love her even though I was and still am hopelessly in love with her. I need help, I need to know if it's worth still holding on or am I better giving up. I know it isn't as short and sweet as I had orginally planned but hey throw me a bone here, I and another million odd people are desperate for the one we can't have.