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This is akaQA, a general question and answer forum, not a religious group. I doubt you will find a diocese here but you may find many wanna be diocese's.

Called according to his purpose ; well let me see.

A long story put short, I found myself with an option, and since I was betrayed on one side, I decided to give myself to GOD , I took a lot of pills , died , and woke up in the hospital. So, I guess it depends on your love-faith-belief that you have a purpose , it is written in the bible that after ones dies the first death, that one can eat/drink anything , now I tested this, but I did use my brain as well, meaning I did not put man made acid type stuff that kills body tissue , in my system, I did push it though, but use the brain, what would they have eaten back then , there were herbs and plants and that kind of stuff, but no chemical  manmade products, so choose wisely if you do this. But I do warn , one has to earnestly believe in GOD, and trust in him. This answer may be stricken cause not everyone has the open mind to know anything is possible with GOD. And who was I huh? , I believed in scientific stuff, but also in GOD, so who says God is not the supreme  Science of what it takes to create. And he does have help as well. Angels also exist. So does quantum physics, and multiworlds/universes.

When I did it, I said I give myself to you God, to use me as you please I think.

Note also, that this was building up in me for a couple of years before I did this, and since I knew my wife didnt love me, and wouldnt believe me, then decieved me, well, I had nothing to lose. But also note that blessed are the ones who endure tribulation as well, so no one has to do this, and it is a tough Job with many trials and tribulations as well. Depends on your faith I soppose. I could explain it all to you if you want more detail, but yes, a first death is neccesary, but not a grusome one, one can even die in their sleep I suppose. I used pills, but also was rushed to the hospital. So there was back up too. But pleeese , dont do it if you have doubts. Feel love. Actually, this answer should be erased by Colleen, sorry...